I got picked to be an extra on Skins, just got home and thought I'd do a little write up about it if anyone's interested...

( Sitting on a bus and getting on tv... )

• Shoes: size 4/5
• Skateboard Decks + bearings
• Polaroid Camera
• Gothic and Lolita Bibles
• CDs: Muse + Yeah Yeah Yeahs
• Acoustic Guitar

Prices don't include p+p but make offers! Any payment method is fine. Deperately need money to make the rent! <3
( Pictures! Stuff for sale... )

Just to clarify... drugs are fantastic :D Wait, you little ones read this - no, drugs are bad! Speshly when you are supposed to be doing something else /:
( 13th of June... )

There are now 50+ of these but I don't have the older ones on me. Here are the 6 I've done since moving to Totterdown...

( 11th of May... )

I keep blowing people off ):

Mim why can't I get my ass to London?? Hannah why can't I arrange a time to have a hair sorting session?? Raine, food in my own town and I can't find it in me to show up??

Please don't feel singled out 'cause I'm doing it to everyone. I feel stupid and crap because I know all of you(not to mention others) would give me a hug and all I need right now is a hug.

I'm going to try my hardest to get to my parents today for some tlc and sibling hugs... even tho hugging children is a huge risk with dreads (;

( Who cares if you look like crap, when you've got a gorgeous cat? )</div></div>

If by any chance there is someone reading this who didn't guess from my facebook or I haven't thrust in their face in person (; This is what's going on with me...

I broke up with Jon - after 6 and a half years together. I feel bad, I never like hurting people and I'm scared I'm abandoning him, but it felt there was nothing left but him needing me around to check he wasn't going off the rails.

Another thing happened which made the decision both easier and more difficult, I met someone. I wasn't looking for someone in the slightest, it happened and the feelings were so intense and confusing and wonderful... but he's gone away to Australia for 4 months.

I dont regret anything. I mean that as a general rule but particularly I don't regret the time Jon and I had or how fast things have happened with Tom. I'm happy to be 'single' and celebate for the summer, I'm sad but I have a lot of friends in Bristol now and other friends I should be visiting (:

I live in Totterdown now by the way, in a house full of lovely people with a cat called Jack :D

( Hair update... )

Just to let everyone know... I have to be out of my house by next Sunday(I think). I really don't want to quit my job ): I cried a lot.

My hair's a little crazier than yesterday, I'm off home now to dye it.

I'm a little better than yesterday, had a good cry, things are slowly getting sorted.

Most ironic letter of the week:


40% of my hair is on it's way to being dreads, 10% of my hair already is dreads, the rest is just unbrushed and needs dying. It's not particularly aesthetically pleasing and I cannot afford a hairdresser.




My options are:

• Keep going with the dreads
• Re-dye it pink
• Re-dye it red
• Shave it all off
• Attempt to un-knot it
• Dye it brown
• Dye it black
• Shave it all bar fringe,tails+tiny pigtails
• DO NOTHING

Opinions welcomed (:

Because I can't do anything at the moment and I need to distract myself. No need to read this XD


( Survey Update )

I am a child. I want it both ways. I want no responsibility.

( Proof of me being a child )

I just called work to confirm I'll be in on Friday and I'm in the club all night from 8. I got a little bit excited, working the club is easy and fun, I get to wear what I like and look fabulous. I don't want to quit my job.

I'm thinking of telling a lie(those who know me know I hate lying, I can't lie easily) and telling my mother in law that I'm taking her advice and moving back in here with them and Jon, getting all my stuff moved out of the house and then just finding somewhere to crash in Bristol or renting a small room. Or if I can't, just get on the National Express and go away for the summer.

The amount of stuff I have is my biggest concern, I moved out of my parent's when I was 16 and just collected so much stuff. I can't bring myself to get rid of anything - if I was just going to uni like most people I'd still have a room with my non-essentials but I don't.

Just look afer my books, dvds, furniture, 2 sewing machines, old school books, old art projects, crockery, sentimental stuff. Please I just want to be free.

I know I'm being completly unreasonable, I should just throw away what I don't need, it just hurts that my parents dont want anything of mine in their house.